For Keeps

We are different individuals, different personalities, different experiences, different perspectives and different passions. I never expected I’d be given a chance to have them as my friends, I mean as my family. We had a lot of misunderstandings and more to come for the upcoming years of our friendship, but I hope and pray that we would be strong enough to face all the challenges. I may have a lot of lapses as their friend, but I am thankful that they’re still there for me. I truly believe right now that it doesn’t matter how long you’ve known each other, what matters is that who’s there to back you up, to pick you up and to help you fix yourself. A lot may come, maybe we’d lost communications soon but they would stay in my heart. They’re part of me already, they’re like the additional ingredients for my life to be colorful and worth living.

To Harper, Prosh, Mateo, Jessa and Vj;

Thank you so much! I love you all, I am not perfect and I don’t know what’s up ahead but as long as I can, I will be there for you guys!

Friends.

Last night, one of my closest friends from high school dmed me on twitter, she asked me I'm free today. I was a bit curious and nervous at the same time, because she told me we really need to talk. A lot of things came into my mind since last night, I can't even sleep well and I woke up really early because I can't shrug off the thought that we need to talk and that it involves me. When we decided where to talk, I knew what she really wanted to say. I saw through her eyes, the pain she hid for a very long time, the tears she held back since then. I wanted to hug her, to make her feel that I am just there for her, waiting for her to open up. When she started talking, she broke down in front of me and that made me so weak, I can't handle when my friend is in that kind of situation. What hurts the most? Her squad couldn't accept her for who she really is, they want her to change and I can't understand why they treat her like that. They're making her lock herself inside a box, trying to lie to other people and especially to herself just to make them stay. I tried my best to be serious and be strong for her, my friend became so vulnerable and I wasn't used to it. I was disappointed towards her friends, I thought they accepted her already but no, they wanted to change her because they don't like her for who she really is. All I wanted for my friends? Happiness. I truly accept her for who she really is. Age? Gender? Status in life? Race? For me it doesn't matter, it is not the basis of friendship. I tried to help her and even talked to Keith so that even a little she would be at ease. I'm happy that he accepted her. 

To Jade:

Baist, be free from all the lies. Be true to yourself. Be happy, because you deserve it. I love you baist, no matter what happens, I will try my best to back you up. To help you, to cheer you up, to keep you safe, to sing to you, to be your best friend and who you want me to be, I will do it if it will make you happy. Love yourself. I love you. We love you. 

grey and old

This might be a simple conversation for others but I will truly treasure this one. I am touched when he said 10 years, so that means our friendship will stay that long or more years pa. 😭 I am amazed because he even agreed to my silly deal, that's how my bestfriends' brain works. He's a real weirdo. BUT YES IT IS PIZZA. So deal. I am really happy because I thought he doesn't care about our friendship.

He will always be my Beast friend...

#Saloobin101

When you tell me something or promise me something, tinud.a ninyo. Dili ko dali makalimot labi nag saaran ko. Basin mao ranang rason ngano ma friendship over ta. Why these kind of people exist? Makawalag gana mo oy. Mga taman rag storya, mga storyag atik 😒 Di ta mamakak bes, basin unyag mubalik sa atoa ba makahilak2 unya mo. I don't ask something na maka bad sa inyo pero I hope you would get to realize kung unsa inyo gnabuhat sa uban.

#ToFaith

Puyo na sa imong gnahunahuna, undangi nana. Wa nay ikadulot na maayo sa imoha. Di na maayo mag sige ug hilak para sa mga taong di worthy sa imong tears. Karemember ka sa ingon ni Kuya Joefil sa imoha? Di ba di na ka muhilak? Di ba nag ingon ka sa iyaha na "don't worry di na kuya" okay raman mag hilak Faith, pero ayaw perminteha okay? Kay bahalag walay mag worry sa imoha, take care of yourself. You only have yourself in this world. Salig sa ingon ni Kuya sa imoha katong "Yep yep. Kapoy siya pero it's the best thing to do. Don't worry, I believe nga muabot ra gihapon ang time nga marealize nila imong presence 🙂" kung dili na muabot, hunahunaa nga gbuhat nimo ang tanan para sa ilaha. You showed your love and care for them. Sa mga tao na gapasakitan raka? Pag tuon ug let go, ayaw sigeg hold on sa ilaha kay you're hurting yourself while holding on. Mas better to let them go because they will never cause you good. Keep in mind na if walay naka appreciate sa imoha diri, naa si Papa God na supportive and always at your side. Be strong Faith, daghan pa pwede manakit sa imoha pero heart strong 💙 blue hearts till the end 💙

#Saloobin101 10/14/16

Kapoy na kaayo mag effort tapos di man diay worth it. Murag akong pag memorize sa talumpati tapos 85 ra, walay mali and wa ko nakastop. Okay ra jod, I will accept it if I know within me that I wasn't prepared for that, pero ghad bisan pag kapilahon ko nimog pa recite ato game kaayo ko, because I memorized it. Ang mga nagkamali, wala nakamemorize 90+? Wow jod, what kind of scoring is that Ma'am? I am so disappointed on you, just so you know if I would evaluate you, YOU WILL FAIL!!! I will never do your mistakes pag ako na mag teacher. Maypag wa ko nagtarong dako pa tingale akong grado. MAO RAMAN AKONG POINT DAWAT NAKO KUNG KABALO KO WALA KO NAG EFFORT PERO INANATO ANG PERFORMANCE SA UBAN TAPOS DAKO KAAYO ANG ILAHA? GINAJOKE TALI KO NIMO BA?

Letter To Someone I Had A Deal With

Hi!

          Naalala mo pa ba last week? We had a deal na after ko mag perform sa bombo, magtransfer ako sa acoustic? What happened to that? Explain to me the program for enrollment. Ngano nasali paman ko didto? Please if we had a deal already, do it. I don't want to get disappointed on you because I am admiring you so much because of your passion but if your attitude is like that? I'd better quit the organization and focus on my leadership trainings. DEAL IS A DEAL, if you don't want to change the program and transfer me to acoustic just like how we talked about it, GOODBYE!!! Di ko paprisyo kay kinsa raman ko pero unta mutuman tas atong kasabutan kay di man ta mga illiterate so I assume okay na to, di napod ta bata para mustoryag di mutuman. SO PLEASE? Makawalag gana nalang purme. Makawalag gana iperform.

#Saloobin101 10/12/16

Issachar told me days ago I should confront the person na naa koy pagmahay, so the day after that, I saw him, and punched him while saying "makamahay na kaayo ka" he never smiled like the way he used to be when I'm telling him gamahay ko, not the usual reaction. Instead of being a brat ako pay nagbawi sa iyaha, I made a cover of his favorite songs. Gibinuangan rako niya, and said para ba daw sa iyaha to. MYGHASH I HATE DRUGS. 😭😭😭 Usahay ba sakit mag effort then after grabe akong mahay samot and niana ko "Ako pay nagmahay ako pay nibawi" and he said "sorry ate sincere ni siya." And by reading that na melt akong pagmahay. Okay nako. ❤️❤️❤️ Karun lang morning around 9, nakita nako siya magka may.ong mig outfit, sweat shirt and gray jeans. BEASTFRIEND GOALS! 😂 Pero when I told him "hoy naa koi ipakita" pagpakita nako sa picture namo ni Crush niana siya na "Kinsa na? Mao nas Arkent?" NAH SAMOT KO NAGMAHAY NA HINUON AND ENDING? Gsumbag nako siya ug ni ingon kog makamahay samot.. Pero di jod mada ug unsa bay di nako kaya magmahay sa bisan kinsa na akong bestfriend or anyone really close skoa sa babw na rason...

#HowISpentMyDay 10/11/16

I was so disappointed because I studied for the quiz and it was announced as a take home quiz. I cri. I went to cugman and celebrated Ate Miming's birthday 💕 Errands ✨

 My first time to take a jeepney that far, I realized how spoiled I am, that my Papa is always there for me to fetch me. 💁🏻💁🏻 After that, I felt proud! Hahahahahaha. Small things 😅 

At last!!! After almost two weeks power rangers became complete!!!!  Were overwhelmed that we took a lot of photos. We stayed at Ketkai for like 6 hours, because no class 😑😑😑 

AND AND AND AND AND THE MOST AMAZING PART, I had the chance to be with him, uhmm yes! You heard it right. Emeghed!! He called me cute because he saw my toothpaste "Alert Kids". My manager 😍 He's so supportive that I can't contain my happiness, even though I can sense that he has clues already that I like him. He even borrowed my hair brush and cleaned it! His jokes might not be the funniest but I hide the fact that he's cute 🤓 I was so happy when he laughed at my jokes, it was funny I guess 😂 We took photos with each other future SSC President 🙎🏻‍♂️ Got so much like ruuu. 

#Saloobin101 10/10/16

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People sometimes doesn't think about what other people will feel after they do something or say something. Minsan we are so insensitive, keep in mind that we don't know each other's pain. Maybe it is a joke or not but siguro we need to be vigilant and careful because we don't know that maybe the person is going through so much pain and anxieties. We don't have idea that the person is hiding so much problems. Siguro we need to learn, we need to be careful because our tongue can break hearts and it may lead to conflicts, to friendship over dramas. Not because you're already close with each other, you have the rights to hurt them verbally. He/she maybe smiling but it is already killing them inside. Be considerate..

okay

Gusto ko mapagawas tanan kasakit na di nako kaya iingon sa tanan.

To start, sakit kaayo magmahay sa tao nga di nimo kaya jod mahayan pero wa na lage koy gakakita na suporta from you? Ngano di naman ka paryas una. Mala, cold, plain and all inana naka mureply sakoa, di man ka inana since then pero why now? Gsumhan ka? tell me because I'll let you go, pero unta katong ni ingon ko sa imoha sa una nga "kung muhawa raka skong kinabuhi, hawa na karun mintras kaya pa nako bitawan ka." ngano wa ka nihawa ato palang panahona? Ngano kailangan karun pa? Nga anad nako na naa ka, nga pwede taka tawgon pag wala na kaayo ko ug kanang naa sakoa tanan. Unta maayo pa ni akong hunahuna kay di ko gusto na masakitan ka kay gibuhat nimo tanan nimo kaya para sakoa. INATO LANG TA BI :( KAY SAKIT NAJOD KAAYO BITBITON AKONG PAGMAHAY TOWARDS SA IMOHA, KAY DI NAKO KAYA NA DI KA PANSINON PAG MAGKITA TA, NA DI KA STORYAHON, NGA DI KA TAWAGAN OR ETEXT KAY DIBA BESTFRIENDS TA? PLEASE LANG JOD 

Unta kung makakita mog bago na friends ninyo, ingna nako ninyo daan nga di namo sakoa, di ko gusto muasa sa mga tao nga inana. Humana ko magpakatanga nga parya ra japon tas una bisan ug naa na sila. Please lang undang na.

Ngano di pwede na fair? Dili tinuod na ang "Life is unfair" because the truth? ang mga tao ang unfair, because dili nila kaya panindigan ilang treatment satoa, mawala nalang silag kalit pag naa nay bago, tapos makalimot nalang sila sa tanan nato gbuhat para nila atong wala panang mga tawhana.

Ay oo, selfish ko? sorry kaayo ah? This is how I treasure my friends, this is how I love my friends and if this means I want to protect them while hurting myself, I can risk it all for them. pero the question is, are they willing to do that for me too? Kapoi na gane kaayo nga one sided nga love sa crush unsa nalang kaha sa imong bestfriends. Basin ikaw ba nagafight pa tapos siya nag flight na. Kapoi seg kabyaan, kapoi di ma appreciate, kapoi di tagdon, kapoi pasagdan, kapoi na purme sila anad na okay raka, kapoi na you need to hide all your kasakit and pagmahay para way daghan yawyaw.

to someone,

kung naa nakay bago na bestfriend, ingna lang jod ko. Dawaton nako tanan bisan pag di naka magsorry or mag bye sakoa, ingna lang ko. di kay sige rakog kadawat ug seen sa imoha. KAPOI NA KAAYO KO. KAPOI NA MAGHUWAT NA AKO NASAD PANSINON.

SORRY IF I HAVE THESE INSECURITIES KAY BISAN UNSAON NAKOG CONVINCE SKONG SELF DI JOD NAKO KAYA ILIMOD NA NAG BAGO NA ANG TANAN! HALA PAG UBAN MONG TANAN KUNG MAMIYA RAMO. UNTA MALIPAY MO. 

And the things I feared the most are coming near me again.

I know people come and go; I know the people I love will not be with me until the end. But can they stay the same even if they meet new friends or best friends? Are they still willing to lend their hands to help me? Am I being selfish here? If so, I am truly sorry. I can’t do anything about this. I tried because I am already tired of it, but it keeps coming back. I just want to isolate myself and get used to being alone.

Beast friend..

Dear Beastfriend,

https://youtu.be/RNsHTTlx0OM
   I decided to post the message for you here because if I would post it on instagram or facebook I know a lot would react. To start, I am thankful for having you in my life. After all that I've said, you stayed and never left my side. Thank you because you accepted me open arms, even though after you heard about all the mistakes I did from my past. You protected me like I am your real sister, you were there for me when I was wasted and broken. You were there to guide me with every step of my journey. You became my supporter every time I join events and even appreciated my voice although it doesn't sound good because I'm sick.  Thank you because you listened to me while others ignored and rejected me. Thank you because you held my hand while others chose to let go of me. Thank you because you appreciated me in your very own ways. Thank you because you were there in times that I wanted to give up all my dreams because of all the negative things that happened. Thank you because you treated me the way no one did before. Thank you because you bully me that I get to live with it. Thank you because you became my the best of the best of beast friend in this world. Thank you because you proved to me you're not like the others. Thank you for the love, that even after I said "leave me alone" "unfriend" "unfollow me on twitter and ig" "this is the last time that we will talk" "we're not friends anymore" "don't ever talk to me" "friendship over" and a lot more dramas every time I get mad or mahay, you just watched me act like a child and then waited for me to calm down. ENDLESS THANK YOU'S KYLE JOSHUA DAIGDIGAN GAMOROT.  I am proud of you, always even though I tell you that so seldom. With every game you play, I hope I can watch you and shout with the crowd to support my beast friend. Thank you for the unending patience that you're showing me, thank you because at the end of the day even after many things that will happen, good or bad, you're giving me the assurance that I can run to you, I can cry on your shoulders and you're there to make me laugh. Sorry for everything, especially I am such a burden to you. I want to say sorry if I caused you headache, if you stayed awake at night because of my dramas, if you wasted you load because of our hours call quality time, if I make you worried at times, if you had to let your friends go first because I showed up, if you had to be strong for me because I am so weak. Sorry for everything, if I had lapses as your beast friend, if I am imperfect and I had a lot of shortcomings. I maybe the most childish friend that you have, but I assure you when you need me I would be there. I will try my best to be there for you. I am just here waiting for you to call me because you need my company. For sure, I know when you can't sleep, you'll just call me. Kyle, please even when you will have your girlfriend, don't forget about me. I know it will never be the same, I wouldn't get the same attention and time but please let's make sure our friendship will never be affected and end up that we'll unfriend each other. We don't what's up ahead but as long as I can, I will be just there at your side with your every fight. Maybe you would never notice it but I am just around you, I am keeping an eye to make sure you're doing fine. I've got a lot to say but words aren't enough to express my gratitude to you because of all the things that you've done for me. You changed me and molded me to become a good person. This song by Jason Mraz seems to be made just for you, it fits perfectly that I can't get rid of it. I love you my beast friend from the bottom of my hypothalamus. (I tell you once in a blue moon) I am looking forward to more photos with you, photos that will remind me that I am blessed to have you. Photos that will prove all the moments we shared together as we're growing older. Photos that will make me nostalgia. I want to see you achieve all your dreams and goals in life. I want to see you making tita, tito and ate pam proud! I AM PROUD OF YOU. WE ARE PROUD OF YOU. YOU'RE TRULY A GENUINE PERSON AND I AM SO THANKFUL THAT GOD GAVE ME A BEAST FRIEND LIKE YOU...... 


P.S I won't expect that you can read this one because you don't know about my blog. 
P.P.S But if ever you're able to see this! Hi beastfriend. 

Sakit

Wala nay mas ikasakit pa na wala na gane'y kita muiwas pajod ka?



Oo dili ko gwapa, dili ko bright pareha niya or kinsa pa nang babae na ginadream sa ni kinsa na lalake diha.



Pero unta tagae pod ko ug chance na maila ka.




Na makauban ka kay tao pod baya ko kapoyon bisan ug nahigugma.



Di man pwede na tanga nalang ko purme.



Nangandoy pod baya ko na malipay.




Please lang ayaw pag iwas kay di baya ko importante,



Ayaw nako tagaeg pake kay anad naman ko na inani ta purme.



Nahigugma ko pero gusto pod ko malipay ug di na nako ihangol sa akong kaugalingon.



Karun andam nako mubiya



Andam nako muatubang sa ugma na way ikaw



Unta malipay ka sa iyaha kay ako malipayon ko na mubiya.



Salamat sa pagpalipay ug pagpasakit sakoa.



Nakatuon kog sobra.

LEADS

When you realized that you became a better person when people accepted you. You grew together, because you aimed for the same thing. My LEADS family is one of the reasons why I am inspired and motivated to keep moving. Every session helped us to know ourselves while we are in the process of learning what LEADS is all about. Our differences made us who we are. We complimented each other even if we have different personalities. It is the reason why we got along so well. 

When they knew who you really are but they still got your back and helped you in times of trouble. I am thankful that I met them because if I didn't, I would never appreciate life as I see it now. 

Photo not mine. 

(https://www.google.com.ph/search?q=leadership+quotes&espv=2&biw=1600&bih=775&source=lnms&tbm=isch&sa=X&ved=0ahUKEwjj-8au4o7OAhULjJQKHeswDqQQ_AUIBigB#tbm=isch&q=leadership+as+a+family+quotes&imgrc=ToW4pcZ2oT6QaM%3A)

Agriculture

It is amazing how they cooperate with each other. No matter what is your position in this society we all have the same rights and responsibilities. It is very nice to see that they work hand in hand for the best of this country. Change is coming indeed through their actions. We all know how water is important when it comes to agriculture. For sure the new establishments ordered Agriculture Secretary Emmanuel F. Piñol will give a great and big help towards the Mangyans. I can see that we really need to be open to resolve problems. When we get to be open and we can communicate  with each other we get to work properly. We shouldn't focus towards one issue. The ordered establishments of water systems for the 11 communities will lessen the burden of the people living in that area or municipality. They get to work and make a living for survival. It is important to know who really needs help and assistance. I believe that it may be a small thing for the government but it means a lot to the tribe. The seeds and materials they donated will give them the motivation to maximize the assistance given to them. How optimistic it is to see what  Agriculture Secretary Emmanuel F. Piñol said “Sana po pagbalik ko dito, makita kong umunlad na ang mga buhay nyo." We should look forward for the best of everyone most especially to those who went through a lot struggles. Food is really one of our needs, that Mangyans had to face the hardship of producing food. Agriculture must be included to the priorities of the government because this has a great impact to our economy. We have the resources but lack of knowledge and support to maximize these. It is overwhelming that our President gives importance to issues like this, that his main thrust to provide all Filipino affordable and available food.

 http://www.da.gov.ph/index.php/media-resources/photo-releases/2016-photo-release/7928-pinol-sits-with-mangyans

LEADS

Started from the bottom and now I'm in the process of fulfilling my dreams. Making the best of my college life. 

You only have one life so enjoy it while you still have it. No matter how tough it is follow your heart and risk it all for your passion.

Always remember that you're not alone in your journey, you have your friends to support you and be with you along the way.