bye

Say goodbye.

Daddy

I felt so empty when you passed away,

I couldn't find any reason to smile

I couldn't stand the thought that you're already gone.

I couldn't contain the pain.

You're one of the most supportive human being

You're the one who gave me a reason to continue

You're the one who loved me like his own daughter

You made me feel so special.

Dad, now that you're gone, it is so hard to accept things,

it's hard to accept that I will never hear your voice again or feel your embrace.

Dad, this is too painful, this is too much. 

I love you dad, you are my one and only tito dad. Rest In Peace.

For Keeps

We are different individuals, different personalities, different experiences, different perspectives and different passions. I never expected I’d be given a chance to have them as my friends, I mean as my family. We had a lot of misunderstandings and more to come for the upcoming years of our friendship, but I hope and pray that we would be strong enough to face all the challenges. I may have a lot of lapses as their friend, but I am thankful that they’re still there for me. I truly believe right now that it doesn’t matter how long you’ve known each other, what matters is that who’s there to back you up, to pick you up and to help you fix yourself. A lot may come, maybe we’d lost communications soon but they would stay in my heart. They’re part of me already, they’re like the additional ingredients for my life to be colorful and worth living.

To Harper, Prosh, Mateo, Jessa and Vj;

Thank you so much! I love you all, I am not perfect and I don’t know what’s up ahead but as long as I can, I will be there for you guys!

Friends.

Last night, one of my closest friends from high school dmed me on twitter, she asked me I'm free today. I was a bit curious and nervous at the same time, because she told me we really need to talk. A lot of things came into my mind since last night, I can't even sleep well and I woke up really early because I can't shrug off the thought that we need to talk and that it involves me. When we decided where to talk, I knew what she really wanted to say. I saw through her eyes, the pain she hid for a very long time, the tears she held back since then. I wanted to hug her, to make her feel that I am just there for her, waiting for her to open up. When she started talking, she broke down in front of me and that made me so weak, I can't handle when my friend is in that kind of situation. What hurts the most? Her squad couldn't accept her for who she really is, they want her to change and I can't understand why they treat her like that. They're making her lock herself inside a box, trying to lie to other people and especially to herself just to make them stay. I tried my best to be serious and be strong for her, my friend became so vulnerable and I wasn't used to it. I was disappointed towards her friends, I thought they accepted her already but no, they wanted to change her because they don't like her for who she really is. All I wanted for my friends? Happiness. I truly accept her for who she really is. Age? Gender? Status in life? Race? For me it doesn't matter, it is not the basis of friendship. I tried to help her and even talked to Keith so that even a little she would be at ease. I'm happy that he accepted her. 

To Jade:

Baist, be free from all the lies. Be true to yourself. Be happy, because you deserve it. I love you baist, no matter what happens, I will try my best to back you up. To help you, to cheer you up, to keep you safe, to sing to you, to be your best friend and who you want me to be, I will do it if it will make you happy. Love yourself. I love you. We love you. 

grey and old

This might be a simple conversation for others but I will truly treasure this one. I am touched when he said 10 years, so that means our friendship will stay that long or more years pa. 😭 I am amazed because he even agreed to my silly deal, that's how my bestfriends' brain works. He's a real weirdo. BUT YES IT IS PIZZA. So deal. I am really happy because I thought he doesn't care about our friendship.

He will always be my Beast friend...

#Saloobin101

When you tell me something or promise me something, tinud.a ninyo. Dili ko dali makalimot labi nag saaran ko. Basin mao ranang rason ngano ma friendship over ta. Why these kind of people exist? Makawalag gana mo oy. Mga taman rag storya, mga storyag atik 😒 Di ta mamakak bes, basin unyag mubalik sa atoa ba makahilak2 unya mo. I don't ask something na maka bad sa inyo pero I hope you would get to realize kung unsa inyo gnabuhat sa uban.

#ToFaith

Puyo na sa imong gnahunahuna, undangi nana. Wa nay ikadulot na maayo sa imoha. Di na maayo mag sige ug hilak para sa mga taong di worthy sa imong tears. Karemember ka sa ingon ni Kuya Joefil sa imoha? Di ba di na ka muhilak? Di ba nag ingon ka sa iyaha na "don't worry di na kuya" okay raman mag hilak Faith, pero ayaw perminteha okay? Kay bahalag walay mag worry sa imoha, take care of yourself. You only have yourself in this world. Salig sa ingon ni Kuya sa imoha katong "Yep yep. Kapoy siya pero it's the best thing to do. Don't worry, I believe nga muabot ra gihapon ang time nga marealize nila imong presence 🙂" kung dili na muabot, hunahunaa nga gbuhat nimo ang tanan para sa ilaha. You showed your love and care for them. Sa mga tao na gapasakitan raka? Pag tuon ug let go, ayaw sigeg hold on sa ilaha kay you're hurting yourself while holding on. Mas better to let them go because they will never cause you good. Keep in mind na if walay naka appreciate sa imoha diri, naa si Papa God na supportive and always at your side. Be strong Faith, daghan pa pwede manakit sa imoha pero heart strong 💙 blue hearts till the end 💙